|An amazing drawing Thomas' student did for us|
|Christmas snow in Batesville!|
I'm sure people with a normal stress level would be concerned, but I'm not normal. I cried through the whole 1983 produced video while the mom told her kid in his Jordache shirt, you'll feel so much better, it will be fine.
All I could think about is how sometimes is isn't "fine." Thoughts rushed back to Jan 5 2009 when people tried to tell me, I'm sure he will be fine...
And when Kimberly's daughter went in to ACH, it will be fine....
It really is hard to hear those words when you know personally that no one knows "it will be fine."
As the dumb movie ended, Thomas patted my face and said "Be happy mommy." Okay, I'll try.
So after I calmed down, I was able to call some friends that reminded me of what we've learned. One way or another God will make it fine. Life has some very rough spots, but we get through them together. Prayer works. I felt the peace that transcends all understanding. Hallelujah. Prayerfulness=Peacefulness, try it, I promise it works.
|I love how this pic shows his special birthdate he shares with his dad.|
I have been pretty hard on myself how I handled this whole situation. I feel like with all I've been through and all I've learned, I should be more "together", I should be stronger, I should fill-in-the-blank.
|First smile 5 days after surgery.|
I [will] move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children. (Genesis 33:14)
What a beautiful picture of Jacob's thoughtfulness for the cattle and the children! He would not allow them to be driven too hard for even one day. He would not lead them at a pace equal to what a strong man like Esau could keep or expected them to keep, but only one as fast as they were able to endure. He knew exactly how far they could go in a day, and he made that his only consideration in planning their travel. He had taken the same wilderness journey years before and knew from personal experience its roughness, heat, and distance. And so he said, "I [will] move along slowly." "Since you have never been this way before" (Josh 3:4).
We "have never been this way before," but the Lord Jesus has. It is all untraveled and unknown ground to us, but He knows it all through personal experience. He knows the steep places that take our breath away, the rocky paths that make our feet ache, the hot and shadeless stretches that bring us to exhaustion, and the rushing rivers that we have to cross—Jesus has gone through it all before us. As John 4:6 shows,"Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down." He was battered by every possible torrent, but all the floodwaters coming against Him never quenched His love. Jesus was made a perfect leader by the things He suffered."He knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust" (Ps 103:14). Think of that when you are tempted to question the gentleness of His leading. He remembers all the time and will never make you take even one step beyond what your feet are able to endure. Never mind if you think you are unable to take another step, for either He will strengthen you to make you able, or He will call a sudden halt, and you will not have to take it at all. -Frances Ridley Havergal
In "pastures green"? Not always; sometimes He
Who knowest best, in kindness leadeth me
In weary ways, where heavy shadows be.
So, whether on the hilltops high and fair
I dwell, or in the sunless valleys, where
The shadows lie, what matter? He is there!
So I feel like I have to keep learning this lesson over and over, but that's right where I SHOULD be. Right here, where I am. God provides when we ask for help.
To my friends, family and acquaintances through this blog and Har Ber High: Thank you for praying for us we are experiencing peace and happiness because of your prayers releasing God's will for us. Love you all. Bonnie